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taken off Shirley`s blog because I`m too lazy LOL!

` phamlet xx

# g-dragon - heartbreaker

� procrastinating;

❤ ..so hot ><!

.. global warming `❤

Been so lazy these days - I haven`t blogged for a looong time; I have an English assessment tomorrow; I haven`t started; I woke up at 1 in the avo and I haven`t done anything all day... yet ><" and yet here I am blogging another long ass entry - -"

Breakfast was delicious =) ` (technically lunch).

My mum goes to Ultimo Tafe to learn western cooking every Wednesday and sometimes cooks stuff she learnt at home - today was one of those days. The menu was Italian - Risotto for main and Pear Conde for dessert :P the dessert is like that product "Le Rice" if any of you had eaten it previously - I love that stuff but I dunno if they still sell it :/ haven`t seen it around - but I haven`t shopped for food for ages xD LOL! It was delicious :P but the rice in the Risotto tasted like congee except with cheese :/ so I didn`t really like it much - I like my rice not so mushy ><" Now my mum is making Polento chips � whatever that is :S ahaha `

At this rate, I will never thin out TT" my mum cooks too well LOL!

I have realised that I am actually pretty sensitive and I cry easily :/

Last night when I watched Anne of Green Gables (and whilst feeling the guilt of not doing my English instead), I teared up when Matthew (the old man) died. Then this avo when I was watching The Biggest Loser Couples elimination, I teared up again and actually cried a little because it was sad with the two brothers up for elimination and all the touching stuff - if you watched it you would know what I mean... ><" but anyways!

I am beginning to question the title as I sit here like a sticky pudding - I can barely breathe in this heat - what happened to spring?!

- YesterDAY `

I missed the sand at the beach and I haven`t been since January... actually, on second thoughts, I think it was at Sterne`s birthday beach BBQ but it was freezing >< aha `

I wanted to feel the sand beneath my feet again - except with and English assessment tomorrow and people with work, tutor and HSC - no one came with me =( SOOO I went yesterday to La Perouse with my mummy darling instead x) LOL =)! It was open day yesterday as well for Maquarie University - so it was 5.30 by the time I got back home and we ended up watching the sunset as well :P so it was cool - but cold ><" being at the beach after sunset is freezing :/

I drew a few things in the sand too :P but it got dark so my mobile became less capable of taking clear photos of anything by that time :/ which was a shame - because I love drawing in sand and then taking pics of it :P Seeing it being washed away also looks amazing as it just fades away when water smoothes over it and the sand is all flat again =)

Which brings me to another goal after the HSC � TO LOSE 7KG AND GET THAT FLABBY TUMMY IN SHAPE, LOSE THE FLAB ON THE ARMS AND THIN OUT MY THIGHS AND ASS ><" LOL

As for open day at Maquarie in the morning, I only stayed for about an hour I think - because once again, I was by myself :/ I forgot to ask people the night before if anyone wanted to come and I didn`t think anyone would come with really :/ but I regretted not asking after about a bunch of people told me on msn while I was on the train there that they would`ve came with me - -" or maybe they`re just saying that because I was already going there and they wouldn`t have to come out anyway xD LOL! Either way - I was aaaaall byyy myyyseeelf - as Timmy simply sang to me on the phone as I was training it there xD

I got to the uni and I walked around by myself like an idiot :/ everyone else had friends with them or parents ><" and there were heaps of stalls and trains that took people on a tour around the place. I went to get info from the education and business buildings and then after a few questions, a free bag and a trip to the toilet, I left for the trip back. At the station I saw a group of guys with these cool looking yoyo things and I was wondering if they got it from the uni :/ wish I had one haha ` but I didn`t see any around ><" that`s the problem when I was by myself � I didn`t walk around for long enough to check out everything oh wells; should`ve planned my day too ><"

On the way back, met up with Ben and Henry and saw Jaffers and Cass along the way - Ben took me home =) thanks Ben; and then I went beach, carrying a quarter of a block of white chocolate as lunch.

When I came back, I had this reeeeally yucky thing for dinner - it wasn`t even proper dinner ><" my mum was too lazy to cook and it tasted horrible - apparently it`s good for my pimples - -" SIGH! And I wanted to eat KFC that day ahaha ` thanks Ben for not letting me >=/ I ended up watching 'Anne of Green Gables' ❤ during dinner - it was the best story EVER! I loved it =) and I realised I could potentially use it for my self-selected text in Belonging :P YEW! Following that, I watched 'Bad Girls' and a bit of 'Matrix Reloaded' which I got bored of and went to sleep instead haha `

After I checked my hotmail and signed out, this article about breasts caught my eye - read it and see what you guys think xD - yes especially the guys hahaha `

On another note - thanks to Lukeyy who told me all about his NEW mobile - a good 8megapix cam, it being a Walkman series (good for music) and the fact that is all in one is sooo tempting TT" grrr ><" I want the Sony Ericsson W995a!

ps. I missed the day of 090909 :/ and apparently it was a popular wedding day haha ` so asian xD;

and I got to see a spider spin its web outside my window :P I caught it on vid too ` =)

- me procrastinating ><"

taken using webcam lols `

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# Girls On Top - BoA;

� organising my Business Studies crap =)!;

❤ tired;

.. fml - -' `❤

Yesterday, my mother had some grave news for me:

She was reading the (Asian) newspaper and came upon this article...

Almost everyone, including physicians, considers importance of blood type only in relation to transfusions. The gross limitations imposed by such a narrow view become readily apparent when you consider the central role blood type has played in the survival of the human race. Consider this: Were it not for the unique adaptations that have taken place within the blood, the human race would have not been able to survive.

Each of the four blood types evolved in response to both the physiologic development of the species and changing climatic conditions over the eons since humankind first trod the Earth. This is the vital clue to the importance of blood type. The adaptations that occurred in the course of evolution not only strengthened our immune systems against new bacterial, viral, and environmental assailants, but at the same time permitted our vulnerable digestive system to adapt to a wide range of unfamiliar foods.

Type O 

The first known blood type was Type O, which dates as far back as the ascendance of Cro-Magnons and remains today as the most common blood type worldwide. Type O, which we call "the hunter", has a strong and ornery immune system and a hearty digestive system. The strength of the Type O immune and digestive systems ensured early survival because meat was the primary food source. The Type O has an extraordinarily high stomach acid content, capable of drawing the most nutrients from meat and efficiently assimilating such a protein heavy balance of foods.

You might say that Type Os were the first humans to eat on the run. They hunted where they were led by their prey, killed it, consumed it, and moved on. However, over time, the vast herds of available game began at last to thin. As the human race continued to evolve, the desire for survival forced many to learn the skills of growing and preserving a food supply that would protect against famine. This new system demanded that humans remain in one favorable geographic area and create settled cooperative societies that would devote themselves to sustaining the agrarian cycle. Living in communities not only demanded new social skills, it also gave rise to new diseases.

Type A

Type A, which began to gain prominence between 25,000 and 15,000 BC, differentiated its immune system from that of Type O to fight off infections and bacteria that were decimating the collectives, while the Type A digestive system adapted to a diet that was able to meet the body's need for proteins derived primarily form plants and grains. At the same time, lakes, rivers, and seas provided a bounty of fish that incorporated yet another abundant protein source into the human diet. We refer to these new Type A's as "the cultivators".    ...that makes us sound like some agricultural farmer - -"

Type B 

Type B began appearing between 15,000 and 10,000 BC, as the growing tide of humanity spread beyond the range of the first Type O hunters and moved out from the settles agrarian Type A communities - one reason we call Type B "the nomads". Century after century, enormous tribes traveled across the endless landscapes of a still primitive and ever changing world, surviving on the meat and dairy of the cattle, goats, and sheep they herded as well as on whatever they scavenged along the way. Because Type B incorporated so many of the immune and digestive system characteristics of Type O and Type A, they developed a system more balanced and tolerant than that of either of the previous types.

Type AB 

For most of our history, there have been three blood types, and then, approximately ten to fifteen centuries ago, Type AB, still very rare, emerged. We often call Type AB "the enigma", because it isn't entirely clear what stimulated this latest blood type adaptation. Perhaps the full evolution of Type AB is yet to come. What we do know is that it combines most of the strengths and weaknesses of both Type A and Type B. The Type AB immune and digestive system is more complex and quirky than any of the others, which is both good and bad. The good resides in its wide range of immune and digestive responses; the bad in its incorporation of the frailties and vulnerabilities of both Type A and Type B.

BLOOD TYPES - INFO

One diet for all? No way! This is groundbreaking information that will help many more people to find their way to Good Health! This is probably the key for the many people I talk to every day on the hotline who seem to be 'doing everything right' but still do not 'feel right'. If this describes YOU�look here for information you need!

Your blood type determines the food you need, and even how you should exercise. Eating the wrong food can harm your health and wrong exercise will produce little or no desired results.

If you do not know your blood type, call your doctor. If your doctor does not know your blood type, consider giving blood. Any blood bank will tell you your blood type!

Summary -
Blood Type O:
Eat organic meats (no-hormone, no-antibiotic), at least supplementally.
Avoid most grains
Exercise vigorously

Blood Type A:
Vegetarian diet
Light exercise and meditation reduce stress

Blood Type B:
Eat a varied diet which includes meat and dairy products
Moderate exercise

Blood Type AB:
Need small portions of meat, but no beef, pork, or chicken, some dairy
Moderate exercise and Yoga

Each blood type has its own unique antigen marker. Components of certain foods react in a negative way with this antigen. Also, individuals have varying levels of stomach acidity and digestive enzymes, and these traits seem to be correlated with blood type. It is likely that the different blood types evolved to accommodate changes in diet forced by a changing environment.

(except all that was in Chinese xD)

... vegetarian .. ? ...VEGETARIAN ?! FML - MY LIFE IS OVER!

I`m a MEAT eater TT" CARNIVORE! Lols ><" epic *SIGH!

Apparently I can only drink soy milk as well and I was like - screw that! I`m drinking full cream TT" SIF deprive me of my milk too >=(! LOL

And I thought my life couldn`t get any more depressing =0="

I can only eat meat ONCE a week,

Eggs limited to just THREE per week,

And SEAFOOD is the only form of meat I could eat for the REST of the week...

I HATE SEAFOOD! (too many bones and shells - takes practically FOREVER to eat TT")

I`m like my dad - we`re both A positive and both love our meat ><"

& ` my mum loves her vegetables, but she`s blood type O - who can eat MEAT!

goddammit why isn`t it the other way around TT"

So sad...

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

HELP ME OUT PLEASE :) `❤

HEY GUYS!

MY FRIEND EDDY IS DOING Young Achievement Australia business program - what I did last year for my pen weights) AND I AM HELPING HIM SELL~

HIS COMPANY IS CALLED "YASPIRIT" AND HIS PRODUCT IS A "MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE" =)

CLICK ON THIS LINK TO CHECK OUT THEIR COMPANY WEBSITE FOR MORE PICTURES OF THE PRODUCT =)!

IT MAY BE $6.95 FOR ONE

BUT! 10% OF THE PROFIT GENERATED WILL BE DONATED TO CHARITY!

PLEASE BUY ME!

TWO FOR $12 =) OOR 3 FOR $15

REAL SHELLS AND SAND! -ONLY TWO TYPES LEFT:

THE SEA SHELLS AND THE FLOWERY ONE-

the blue and pink beads shown on the site are sold outs :/

the Young Achievement Australia Logo =)

THE GLASS BOTTLE THAT I HAVE WITH ME CONTAINS REAL SAND AND CUTE SHELLS (also real) SO IT ACTUALLY COST THEM QUITE A BIT TO MAKE - THAT`S WHY IT HAS COME TO $6.95. AND IT HAS IT`S OWN MESSAGE SCROLL AND FANCY RIBBON ON THE TOP =)

(Yes, I`m trying really hard)

IT`S PRETTY AND YOU CAN GIVE IT TO THAT GIRLFRIEND OR BOYFRIEND YOU TREASURE SO DEARLY. YOU CAN WRITE SWEET CORNY MESSAGES WHERE YOU CAN PUT IN A NICE BOTTLE. YOU CAN GIVE IT TO SOMEONE LIKE YOUR MUM OR DAD - GREAT GIFTS FOR ANYONE YOU ARE CLOSE TO LIKE BFFLS!

I REALLY NEED SOMEONE, ANYONE! AND EVERYONE! IF POSSIBLE TO BUY SOME OFF ME BECAUSE THEY`RE HAVING A BIT OF TROUBLE SELLING AND REACHING BREAK-EVEN POINT! PLEASE HELP ME OUT AND BUY ONE!

I`M BEGGING YOU GUYS! PLEEEEEASE! BUY ONE EVEN IF IT`S OUT OF PITY!

I`LL LOVE YOU FOREVER! EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY DO - I`LL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE!

I WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU COULD HELP ME EITHER SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT HIS PRODUCT AND HELP ME GET SOME SALES - PREFERABLY BY THE END OF THE WEEK AS THEY`RE LIQUIDATING (closing) SOON :/

THANKS FOR READING! AND HOPE YOU BUY ONE =)

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❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# last day on earth - kate miller;

� capped =(;

❤ problematic child :/

...unheard thoughts `❤

It is as painful to me as it is for you to read all of this.

Prologue - the reason for the beginning of this feeling...

I opened up to you, and you consolidated me at first. Then you set out to destroy that comfort and even though it was the truth, it was painful. It hurt inside and everything came to me at once. Before that message, you called but I missed it. I called you back an hour later, but you didn`t pick up. I checked my phone after dinner - nothing. I checked my phone after I showered - nothing. I watched 2 hours of Dance and then checked my phone again - nothing. I wanted to call you again, but I was crying. I had a million thoughts and feelings running through me. I resisted to call you, but I couldn`t. I wasn`t in my right mind when I finally did call you. I`m sorry. I was still crying and I had a blocked nose and was sniffling. You asked me if I was sick, but all I said in reply was either "no", or "I`m fine". Either he didn`t take the hint, or he didn`t know that when a girl says "I`m fine" after a long pause and sniffling, that really, they`re not. That if they don`t sound right, they`re not fine. Either that, or he didn`t want to bring it up. He didn`t want to know. He was too tired to get into another big thing. Or he just couldn`t care less anymore. I didn`t know what to say because I didn`t want him to know. Even though I wanted him to know, I wanted him to find out, but he didn`t work it out. Because of this, I was left with the repeated phrase in the conversation that "you should go to sleep - you have work tomorrow". But he took it that I didn`t want to talk to him and that I was using it as an excuse. I didn`t know what to say - I was still crying... After we hung up, I cried harder... I eventually fell asleep, with the thought in my head that no-one was there for me right then at that moment.

This will not make sense to most of you xD

In fact, I think it`ll only make sense to me as they are my thoughts...

& ` my ideas and thoughts appear to be jumpy as I just put down whatever comes in mind.

Sometimes I wonder how something became what it is, where it developed from and why. To wonder "why" - asking what could`ve happened that`s already passed, instead of trying to make better of the future. I have been told not to ask "why", but when you feel like this - it`s a bit hard not to think about everything really.

I was sleeping and then the phone rang - it was my grandpa (dad`s side - not very close to him ><"); I got up after that and got ready to go to UNSW`s open day. People I called up who I knew were there seemed to be in a lecture, so I was THAT close in going to an accounting lecture with Meike :/ but May got Rita to call me - thank goodness lols.

Rita and I waited around for a few minutes before May and Jackie came out from a lecture and we took a long time trying to meet up with Jiaqi since May met a lot of friends along the way - every time they saw someone, I would stand there like an idiot because I didn`t know them and tried to keep myself entertained - "Rita Rita Rita! There`s a V (energy drink) vehicle in the shape of a rocket - isn`t that cool?" ...*no response; after 3 repeats, I gave up.

Finally we made it to the main entrance and went to Maccas for lunch - seeing as I had previously ate breakfast not long ago, I didn`t get anything. Jiaqi, WaiYih and Vivi joined us a while later. I was sandwiched in the middle with nothing to do - I felt so out of place ><"

So I texted Josh who was also at the convention and he didn`t come to Maccas until like half an hour later xD But seeing as I was stuck and being a hassle to get out, I just stared at him talking to May for two minutes and gave up hope of socialising with anyone since he didn`t talk to me :/ (dw ` he already explained why xD)

Last night as I was watching "The Lake House", I have taken interest to a few things:

1. The concept of 'Waiting' & Jane Austen's "Persuasion" that revolves around this concept.

2. Death - life can disintegrate; you can die unexpectedly; everything is impermanent.

3. "How do you hold onto someone you never met?" - pretty much sums it all up.

Some interesting concepts - and some depressing bits... all which left me feeling heavy hearted. It has brought out all the sad things that I have tried to put away or hold back in the past month or so. It all came back to me in an instant, making me crawl into bed crying. Crying, because I haven`t cried for a long time and it hit me altogether.

Eddy had sent me a hard truth about me and my actions of the previous day (of what I did with someone and how shameful it is) a few hours earlier, but my battery had died and I fell asleep over at Ben`s because I haven`t been getting enough sleep recently - I was supposed to be studying ><". The exhaustion is becoming overwhelming and I haven`t been able to properly study - I tried. All this melancholy feeling has become a result of lack of sleep and unheard thoughts and untold feelings.

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If I were to have typed an entry last night, it would have come out worse than it is now.

But because I have had a good cry last night, woke up to some annoying telemarketer - twice; took a hot and cold shower; and spoken to a non-depressing person (you know who you are lols); I am feeling much more invigorated and to move on from what I can`t change.

Someone once told me that they "strive to live by other people's expectations". But why? Is it something that we need to keep us going? Why do we need to live up to other people's expectations? Why do we have to live to impress others? Why do we have to live up to the social stereotype? Why Why Why ?! Where is the individuality and independence if we all end up impressing other people? Do we need to impress others to satisfy ourselves? To make others happy in order to make ourselves happy? But unfortunately the answer to that is yes... we are living in a world where we end up impressing others to be happy with ourselves. Whether we have to satisfy our parents, make our friends happy, or do something for the sake of contributing to the world.

Ungrateful bitch? No, I think not - just pondering the wonders of life that will never be resolved and left unanswered; thinking about the significance of life and it`s purpose - I think a lot - too much in fact. So much that sometimes logic is taken over by "if"s, "why"s and in some cases, suicide. Where there is no longer any logic in one`s mind when you experience the deepest melancholy ever. But the poem "Ode in Melancholy" that I studied last year in prelim has given a message that "you must experience sadness in order to appreciate happiness" - but how much misery in life do you need to go through to appreciate the good things that happen in life?

You see, every thought can be contradicted by another and you never know what to think - because when you know too much and you learn to think from every perspective, it is hard to make up your mind what to do then and there when there are so many other things you need to consider. That`s what I hate, and that`s why I never seem to be able to be precise about what I want and how to go about difficult situations. I`m indecisive in the fact that I don`t know what to think because everything seems right in their own way.

Confused?

Here`s an example:

Scenario: I think I am a burden to everyone around me - that I am a useless miscreant that breaks people`s hearts and I don`t know why I`m still here if I bring so much pain to others. That I constantly cross that line and I don`t control my actions. That I set out to do one thing, but lose motivation in the middle...

Perspective 1: I hurt too many people and think it will be better off if I did not exist any longer, or I`ll hurt more people. I have no self-control whatsoever, but am trying very hard to change.

Perspective 2: But I have to live on because I made a promise to a friend to live on for them. Or I have people that need me because I have emotional friends and if I leave them, they`ll lose hope after they see me give up on life... Or both of these things.

Perspective 3: I am a bastard, my father left before I was born and my mother has assured me that they love and need me as I am the only thing they have left - despite the fact that she yells at me and gets frustrated at me - because apparently "骂是疼, 打是爱" - "telling you off is caring and hitting is love" - straight translated ..but sort of explanatory?

Sometimes when they yell at you, you hate them, but then after a while, you realise that they really do love you and as you grow to learn that it is their way of caring for you, that they are worried about you and you learn to understand how they feel - this is when you know that you need to live on for another person's sake. This is when you realise that although they have a weird way of showing their love for you, they mean it when they tell you off - because they care.

If you had a friend on drugs, would you tell them off?

They would find you annoying right? And that you are no fun etc etc.

But you are telling them off because you care for them - are you not?

This is the same as your parents - they tell you off because they care.

Perspective 4: I`m so lazy that I know I will never be successful - btw, this thinking will eventually get you nowhere because it`s so unmotivating ><"

Perspective 5: You never know until you try.

Imagine all these things you have to consider when you are on the verge of ending your life permanently... and you can`t go back.

Except that all these perspectives are all real at once.

You see why making decisions for myself are so difficult?

Because after thinking about all the different perspectives, I`m left with being back at the start once again - I don`t want to live, but I have to live on - because it would be selfish of me (and i would be breaking promises) to leave people feeling even worse that I have left, or because you have the need to be there for people who are also experiencing the same things, or it is because you love someone that you can`t bear to think about how much pain they`ll be if you left... No matter your reason, sometimes you have to move on and when that feeling of melancholy lifts, you learn to see the brighter side of things and learn from mistakes and try your best to correct yourself - even if you don`t succeed, at least you tried. And from trying, you don`t result in regret. It`s easy to say, but hard to do - but at least make an attempt. It is hard to find the motivation to do many things nowadays (for me), but I still try... maybe not my best, but I still try.

My thoughts are unclear at this point and I`m trying to figure out how to write it all out in words... not to mention my train of thought is interrupted by the loud entrance and chatter of my parents coming home -.-"

2hours later...

Came back from dinner and kept switching channels between ACA (A Current Affair) and Idol. ACA had the story where this eight? year old kid was transgender - she was born a boy and wanted to be a girl ever since she was two - her message to other transgender kids in short was "being true to oneself will make you happy". A few weeks earlier, I have seen the same stories on Oprah where a male and female were also transgender and they were discussing this topic. They felt stuck before the change - whether it was a boy`s mind being stuck in a female body, or a female mind stuck in a boy`s body. They didn`t feel right until they took that change.

Then I switch to Idol and the contestant is talking about her life story of how she became to love singing - I caught the part where her mother suicided...

Then there was another contestant before her who had his family associated with gangs or the bad side of life and they tried very hard to change. They went to church and his singing made them all content and happy and now they`re living happy changed lives.

These stories are yet to make me feel better about my own situation, but you have to admit that the one experiencing the situation at that moment will feel it the most - big or small. To me, no matter how much you compare with others, it all comes down to you. Because the reality is, YOU are the one with THE feelings and YOU are the one that has to suffer. Although, do be grateful of what you have and that it could be worse... But when shit happens, it`ll still feel like shit no matter how hard you try to deny it. What more is there to say?

There will still be that feeling inside me that will always stay within...

You don`t think I know how you feel?

Sometimes, even though I usually seem happy and smiling all the time - even if someone looks like they have it all - it is never what it seems. People tend to give an example of what other people have told them to show that you know and you feel what they feel because either you`ve experienced it, or you`ve been told that experience - to show understanding. No matter how different the situations you are in are, the backbone of it will always be the same - same crap, different smell.

Sometimes, when people have a lot of friends, they find themselves in situations where they feel lonely - Why?

1. You don`t want to tell even the closest of friends how you feel because it will worry them;

2. That you will be making them sad as well;

3. That you don`t want to be a burden - they have enough going on for themselves, or they`re just too busy.

4. That it would be alright soon.

5. You don`t want to look weak in telling them your feelings.

Sometimes you result in someone being straight up with how they feel about you. You get hurt at the beginning, and because you realise the truth in what they`re saying, you`re hurt even more. But this leads to a change - a change that you want to make in an attempt to make things right again. It was a good thing that they told you the truth, no matter how much it hurt.

Sometimes things are not always what they seem.

And sometimes, things happen for reasons.

More or less for Good reasons:

Eg. Losing all your mobile contacts may actually get you talking with long lost friends again from asking them their numbers again.

Eg. You may learn, even though it is the hard way, that the consequences of your actions have lead to yourself trying to become a better person and to fix those bad habits.

Eg. You lost something dear to you to realise that you should treasure things around you before it`s too late; so you don`t regret in the future; and that you become more mindful.

There are two types of people:

1. Those who let it all out;

2. And those who keep it all in.

Even though those who let it all out hurt others, they are helping themselves.

Even though those who keep it all in aren`t hurting others, they are hurting themselves.

Talk to someone, or write your feelings down - don`t bottle it up. Because no matter which type you are, there will always be a solution in letting it out - sometimes I even find feedback from other people unexpected or advice I didn`t think of.

Sometimes you don`t have to tell people - you could call up someone and find yourself laughing at something your friend has said instead and soon you forget why you were so upset in the first place. Special mention to Grant who has actually randomly called me up one night not knowing I was upset and I acted as if I wasn`t crying (because I was), but soon found myself laughing and being less depressed - it worked - and he still doesn`t know about it :P Thanks Grant =)

Today`s entry is no longer written about my own feelings, but of others`, as they share their feelings, whether it is on television, msn, or one on one interaction of a deep and meaningful. Just know that no matter what decision you come to, make sure it's something you won`t regret. Sing to favourite songs, bang out on an instrument, do some sport, go to the gym; or even cry for an hour if you must - but afterwards, think about everything you were thinking of doing before, think about what could`ve happened after that and how others would feel. Think about why you felt that way and reason with it. Sometimes after you cry, you feel a little happier and think how stupid of you to have thought of all those silly little things you were about to do. Sometimes it could be just PMS, or that you`re feeling the way you are because everything got bunched up together and only had just let it out. Sometimes you feel a thousand things at once, but you can not unravel the thread of your feelings with enough certainty to speak with any accuracy - you should not say or do what is not in your heart - or what is only in your heart for a moment. The part underlined is what I got out of reading my English Module C book, "Snow Falling On Cedars" - it actually gives an interesting insight of different perspectives :P At first I found it boring, but after a while, I found myself relating to some situations. It`s actually got good content (bits here and there ><").

Well, Ladies and Gentlemen, those are my paragraphs of wisdom - But do keep in mind what I have tried to advise - even if my words and sentences aren`t quite clear to you ><" - I tried lols. Trying is what matters.

Btw - Happy Father`s Day ><"

Ps. I just have to add what I had for breakfast this afternoon when I woke up because I was too lazy to cook even two minute noodles -

it consisted of a nutritional meal of a few pieces of white chocolate, two packets of BBQ flavoured mamee noodles, some asian biscuits, and a glass of milk - all whilst watching tv =) healthy~

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# Last Day on Earth - Kate Miller;

� capped =(;

❤ problematic child :/

�unwritten `❤

This is actually an entry written on September 7th, but I`m putting it on the 4th to state that this happened on the Friday the 4th.

Friday Week A`s are the best � double English, double free, maths, and another free - so basically, I didn`t even go to maths that day...

The previous day I had already called Timmy up to tell him I`ll be going to the west and wanted to meet up with him. After double English, I bussed it to Central, then trained it to Parra. Timmy wasn`t gonna be there until another hour or so, so I went looking around in Westfield instead - I love Parra Westfield - a shop-a-holic`s paradise =)

I bought three cupcakes from Cupcakes on Pitt - one for my dad for Father`s Day, and two chocolate ones with a cute panda bear on top - one for Timmy and the other for Grant. I was going to get the Pikachu one for Grant, but they ran out of the Pikachu sugar thing :/ oh wells.

I then bought another 4 pairs of g-strings to add to my collection:

A white lacey one with a bow and heart dangling at the front; a black one; and 2 pink one with white edges - I gave one to Grant for his birthday (inside joke)

I love lacey lingerie :P Imagine reading this when I`m 60 years old with amnesia and discover that I used to wear g-strings xD *shudders; & guess what - it was like $9 for ONE g-string @ cotton-on body, so I was like -___-' fuck that- I`m taking it... But dw ` I bought the other 3 =)

Went to the bathroom to piss and Timmy calls LOL! He always has good timing - every time he calls, I am always in the toilet ROFL! I made my way to his car, but took a detour to his car in case...

We drove out planning to eat lunch first, but then because we passed Cabra, decided to visit Eddy at his shop - he asked me to visit him earlier, but I said I`ll see because I only had til 5-ish and if we didn`t pass there, I don`t want Timmy driving there just for the sake of it - but we passed there, so we went to look for parking. I was pms-ing because I am supposed to get my period in two days (6th - today). What has this got to do with parking? WELL, we finally found a spot (Timmy and I have this luck when it comes to parking) and this guy behind us just parks into the spot we were waiting for - just because we were parked up front, but you can`t blame us because we had to move for the car to reverse! And I got SOOOO pissed I was ready to friggen bash that BLIND idiot - -' but Timmy was like - narh, let it go, it`s Cabra- we`ll find somewhere else... and we DID! A car was leaving and we got the spot - Timmy called it "good karma" and said it would`ve taken longer to bash the guy anyway xD I totally LOL @ him.

Anyways, went to see Eddy and apparently he was busy when we went in, so we waited outside for him. 5 minutes later and he still didn`t come out - usually he comes out like.. straight away =0=" so I called him and he said he`s not gonna come out... not even say bye or anything, which pissed me off because he was the one who asked me to go visit him, I did and then he just brushes me off - -' like who the fuck does that?! He texted me later saying that he finished early, but whatevs - I was too pissed to even talk to him after that >:@!

Timmy took me to some place in Livo for lunch and their food was heaps yummy :3

He ordered this chicken crepe thing; and coke and I ordered grilled chicken with gravy and chips on the side; and a glass of watermelon juice ^^ FTW! We were sitting outside-ish, so it was like a smoking zone, but I cbb moving so we just sat there and there was a tv just above us anyways xP I was practically glued to Channel [V] and took my time eating whilst I took down song names on my mobile with Timmy`s help xD `

We then drove to Livo to see Grant and give him his present. He was out in the storage area unloading stock from the van - I helped out too haha ` except I left Timmy outside :P OOPS :3 ROFL! It was dusty and stuff but meh x) was in my uniform anyways :P It was a short visit...

We planned to watch a movie at Timmy`s but by then I had just under an hour left before I had to leave to get back to UNSW library � because that is where I told my mother I would be that afternoon xD LOL! So instead we decided to surf the net, but his net was laggy - he said it shouldn`t be capped - so I guess it was just laggy :/ even the attempt at streaming for porn was epic FAIL xD ROFLMAOO! Dw ` we were being VERY good kids *no sarcasm whatsoever xD

ANYWAYS! We lost track of time xD and I was late to get back :/ and my mum was supposed to pick me up, but then I sent a message to her saying that I was at UTS library instead with some other friend and Timmy was out at city so he would drive me back xP well at least the last bit was true :P haha ` it was a fun ride home ;D *ahem LOL!

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# nothing;

� contemplating;

❤ </3!

...why `❤

to him: why did you have to go and break my heart ?

` why did you have to be this way ?

` why did you have to make everything so difficult ?

` why can`t you forget me ?

` why do you do this to me ?

to her: why did she get all the attention ?

` why did you walk away from me ?

` why did you bring me into this world ?

` why can`t you just let go of the past ?

why am I still here...

我累了...

...­

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...­

我决定放弃你 </3

- why is everyone around me so depressed ?

"the people around you make you who you are"

... yeah, that explains a lot - -"

HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE IN THIS FUCKING DEPRESSING ENVIRONMENT ?! IT`S LIKE .. FUCK THIS FUCK THAT FUCK HIM FUCK HER !

WELL GO AHEAD ! STOP TALKING ABOUT IT AND GO DO IT ! I DARE YOU TO YOU FUCKING PRICKS !

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# nothing;

Ó drawing :);

❤ YAYERS!

..FINALLY! `❤

All i have to say right now is...

I FINISHED MY BLOG YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY !

credits to Shirley for giving me the convenient skin converter =)

I L❤VE YOUU :D

` phamlet xx

# 暧昧 - Rainie Yang;

� getting used to g-strings :L;

❤ stoned & ecstatic...

..post-trials trauma `❤

Tired from previous nights and staying up late to get this blog progressing has really done my head (and my studies) an unfavourable advantage.

Two days back from trials and already I`m falling asleep in class AND procrastinating. This is NOT a good sign at all. 2-3 weeks before my legit HSC Chinese speaking exams and here I am blogging away... The fact that "Blades of Glory" is on channel nine right now is not helping =(

I will keep today`s entry short as I really can`t be bothered, my hands are freezing up and my eyelids are drooping as I type.

Well, with a bit of help and suggestions from my sweet IT specialists who have their very own cool blogs, Rita and Shirley have partially helped me piece together my unfinished & dodgy blog theme. I say partially because as you can see, if they did most of it for me, I wouldn`t have had stayed up all night being the noob that I am at these things; and combing through html and CSS codes to change it to my preferences; nor would I still be in this pickle.

Right now, when I open the blog site, there IS no blog xD because I don`t have the converter program thing that Shirley was talking about at lunch today - she linked me but then I clicked on it with my scroller (which didn`t open it in a new window as it`s supposed to do), and I closed the window - seeing as she`s studying and I never do chat logs, I wont be able to do anything about it until a later time ><"

Well, apart from sleeping under the sun, having a stomach ache in the morning in first period; had a very pointless double free in between recess and lunch and played Big 2 with my friends (as per-usual), I have pretty much done nothing productive throughout the day and feeling guilty about it would be too late anyway - I`ll just have to try harder tomorrow and start on some maths :/ That is, if I don`t start making something for Grant`s birthday ><"

I hate the HSC TT" WHEN CAN I GET INTO UNI =( ?!

I`m so looking forward to uni now actually - I definitely want to go to Maquarie, even though I know it`ll be a pain to get to, the atmosphere there is really welcoming and being so remote (haha ` yea- with ONLY a big ass shopping centre opposite and an ice rink), it`ll be interesting whether I would study out in the library during breaks x) I hope education won`t be too hard though :/ but I have a feeling I`ll enjoy first year just like a little kid back in year 7 =) - just not picked on by the seniors LOL

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx

# Afterthoughts - unknown;

Ó sitting here getting fat .. *yawns;

❤ sleeeepy zzz...

..UPDATE! `❤

Warning: this will be a long ass entry because I can ramble on about ONE thing that happens in a day and elaborately describe everything in detail, so be prepared to read it for the next hour - or less depending how fast you read and how much you skip xD (most of this is to mainly reinforce my own memory for future reference anyways xP that`s why I like detail)

- You stand warned x) Read at your own risk :P

I have been pretty busy the past few days :D and being finally at home again, I shall recount the wondrous moments to keep a memory here. You see, I have been having VERY bad memory lately- especially after yesterday, I am extremely deprived of sleep and energy - and sometimes I find myself not being able to remember what I went upstairs to get; what I was going to say next, or what I did the day before - unless something awesome happens LOL! When you have slept at 2am for the past few weeks, comes home yesterday at 3am and then wakes up this morning at 9:30am PERMANENTLY, then you know you`re getting old - I swear I used to be able to sleep for 16hrs straight and now I just wake up and no matter how tired, I just can`t fall asleep again TT"

ANYWAYYS, following up my last two days...

...GAH I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY MY MIND IS SWIMMING!

- Thursday night `

Being random and habitually impulsive, I curled my hair just to see if I could do it better than my first time yonks ago. I felt a sudden girliness that I JUST had to do something with my hair and put some eyeliner on - and I did. The first time in my life (being supposedly female), I had been successful with the eyeliner and even my mum said it was the best (no, she didn`t say it was good, just the best) out of all the times I`ve tried to put it on myself (in other words, I`m still developing *shh you >=|) Then I tied up my hair in piggy tails and... ooooh Korean-wannabe :P LOL x) it just turned out that way :P ahaha...

- FriDAY `

OMGAWWD TRIALS ARE OVER AND I DIDN`T HAVE SCHOOL! I got woken up SO EARLY despite having slept yet again at 2am - don`t ask me what I was doing up so late - because there WASN`T anything to do that late... I was literally sleep procrastinating - which is a VERY bad habit of mine lately TT" BUT! There was a good cause behind waking early - SHOPPING! Yes, the shopaholic is finally going for some REAL shopping - with her mother ;D hahaha- aren`t I one lucky spoilt bastard xD I was supposed to buy my formal shoes - I solemnly swear - I was ONLY going to buy formal shoes =) We searched East, South and Centre, but couldn`t find the right shoes - being the perfectionist that I am ><" The first store actually had really nice shoes in gold and silver, but the gold pair ran out of size 8s and it was last season`s, so they didn`t stock anymore =( *siiigh. So THEN we went to Birkenhead point, where there was heaps of construction and newly opened shops were spread everywhere in different parts of the place :/ and because I was wearing my beloved white shorts :3 and fob while heels with polka dots and some random non-asian top xD I looked a bit like a dolled up 20yr-old with the hair-style done like the night before and simple eyeliner :/ (like I don`t look old enough ><") and the builders kept staring :/ maybe not a good idea... BUT ANYWAYS- there was an Allanah Hill store :P and I loved the jacket there - but it looked pretty doll-like, so I didn`t get it because: 1.it was expensive & 2.i wouldn`t have the chance to wear something so fancy :/ I`d look like a dope if I wore that and my friends wore like casual xD LOL! It was funny tho because my mum was like: "now that asian lady over there is trying it on because you`ve been modelling it for so long" xD I lol at my mum- she`s so cute sometimes xD

Didn`t buy the jacket, but my mum fell in love with this dress -it has stars and hand sewn stuff on it :P I admit it is quite pretty =) but my mum was crazy over it xD LOL! She bought it for me ^^ and guess what- because it was the last one, it was a size 6. At first I was like oO" err... forget it I wont fit into a size 6 :S but the shop assistant and my mum got me to try it on anyway >< and surprisingly it fit oO! Well I guess that`s flattering to know >< LOL! We kept going back to the jacket afterwards xD but still didn`t buy it - although it was fun to try it on and stuff :P - we ended up buying a handbag from there instead xD it`s a really cute one :3 light blue too ^^ hehee =) SO HAPPY~ :D Got hungry and got a salad, then OFF TO BONDI WESTFIELD because we didn`t find any good shoes where we were >< lol. We found a pair at Max`s shoes (finally) but yea... still liked the gold ones TT" -but bought them anyway LOL! They`re really high :/ and I can barely walk in them :S epic noob >< LOL!

All that shopping killed my feet & my mum just wanted to sit down xD `

Ben came over after we came home to eat dinner and watch Nanny McPhee together but he got "kicked out" xD halfway through the movie because it was getting late and my mum didn`t want him to get home so late... And then I slept at 2 :/

- YesterDAY `

The day before I promised my dad I`d go visit grandma with him and have lunch together, so I went - it was a buffet at Granville RSL :S and the food was ><" aha` but anyways- after all that, we took them home and I was soooo full; talked to grandparents for a while while dad was vacuuming for them and then left. That night I was also supposed to go to Woollongong Nan-Tien Temple, but little did I know that that was about to change and there were other plans waiting for me (well, it wasn`t exactly planned ><" duuh`).

I came home and I THINK I took an hour in the bathroom - apparently :/

In short: My mum came back from work, showered and I was still doing my hair and makeup although it wasn`t necessary, I wanted to try out the "new" look in public ><", which I then forgot I had music to put into my ipod :/ so then I rushed downstairs after giving my mum my pjs and stuff to pack and tried as fast as I could to upload the new songs into my ipod - my mum was ready to leave, got frustrated at waiting for me because I couldn`t survive the long trip without my music and my mum thought it unnecessary - it was unnecessary, but I just couldn`t help it ><" then I got frustrated too and she left without me =(

That was a short intro leading to the adventures of the night ` ...

My dad told me off and I decided to catch the train there myself (and my mum took out my slippers beforehand so daddy took me to Central and I was about to buy a ticket to Unanderra. I called up Jamie beforehand and he said he`d be going there at 1am and offered me a lift but his friend was only on Ps and could take one passenger - I didn`t want them to risk it so I got him to check the times for the train to Unanderra instead. Jamie texted me saying that train was 5.40 and I`d get there by 7.30, just before the gates close at 8 for entry into the temple. It was already 5.40 on my mobile, so I didn`t have much hope in me seeing as the train would`ve arrived and it only comes every hour ><... but then daddy called me back saying he called mum and she cancelled the place/bed (we were supposed to sleep over), even more the reason why I shouldn`t go. My dad told me to go home, but I didn`t want to so I called Eddy ><

I bought a ticket to Cabramatta because his shop was there, but then when I went in, Line 19 was closed ><" so I had to go Line 18 to Parramatta first and wait for Eddy to come pick me up :/ I was busting to pee when I was training it. When I got there, I couldn`t get through the barriers because it wouldn`t take my ticket, so I was like crap and the guy behind me was like "hurry up, go go go" but I was stupid enough to go back >< LOL I guess that`s how Parra rolls ehh :/ & I was too honest >< ahaha ` but then the guy I thought was a railway supervisor then put this girl through the barriers by pushing it open and ended up realising he didn`t work there and she was his girlfriend LOL! So I waited for the people to die down and I did the same - there was no supervisors anywhere :/ except for security cam, which was why when I came back from the Westfield toilets, there were security at the barriers xD LOL! I waited for 40mins or so - but I didn`t complain, because I know Eddy had to close and stuff, and I was the one who called him out - he didn`t have to - but I`m glad he came out for me =) But lucky I had my music anyway with the new uploaded songs xD LOL!

When he got there, we drove around in his car and had nothing to do LOL! So we went to Peter`s house xD but he didn`t pick up his mobile :S oh wells haha `

I called Grant outs before, but he went to his sister`s and didn`t come out because we weren`t doing anything anyway ><" It was around 7.30 at the time? We were deciding what to eat :/ but neither was hungry... stopped at Maccas because I had to pee again xD I had previously drank my bottle of water while in my dad`s car and by the time I realised, I only had a fifth of the bottle left xD - it was supposed to be for the trip to the temple too :S

- Grant did offer to pick me up from station and take me home so thanks for asking =)

We drove around a bit more and my mobile battery was pretty much dying. We finally decided to go his house to cook food because I insisted xD and I felt like baking a cake (I`ve never done so before xD) and I missed his cute lil dog called Stitch ^^. We drove to Woollies and got $40 worth of ingredients for the pizzas we were going to make and two boxes of cake mix (got two, because it was "get two for a cheaper price" xD). When I realised it cost so much I was just like oO" might as well have ordered the pizza for less ><" but it was fun making it =) It was awkward meeting the family but I tried my hardest not to be a freak and talked to his sister- she`s cute :P we were best friends in like a millisecond and kept ganging up on Eddy for everything he said and complained about xD LOL! Chicks before dicks ;D Hells yea- it was funny x) Seeing as I brought my own slippers anyway, I carried it inside but then decided to just walk around in socks LOL! And Stitch was going through my stash and pulled out my slippers from the bag xD so cute x3

The pizza was delicious, the garlic bread was soggy and the cake was hilarious xD Eddy`s sister put banana slices and marshmallows in the cake middle and putting the top back on the cake, we gave it a fruity face xD We ate soooo much food (and watching Harry Potter on TV in the process xD) & also test tasted his sister`s jelly and cupcakes which were pretty good =) we were so full - I was the only one who had cake, along with his dad LOL - his dad had some pizza too :P Eddy took pics of his sister and I with the cake, but it`s on his cam so I wont be putting it up x) Then after all the food my dad called and offered to pick me up, but then Eddy insisted on taking me home because his dad said it was his responsibility to get me home ><" I was stubborn at first because he`s already wasted a lot of petrol driving me around :/ so he pretty much had to drag me out of his house xD and I had to go back in for a pee LOL! I think I had bladder problems last night :L

I finally got into the car, but I didn`t go home yet xD We had f*works to kill, so we spent like half an hour trying to find a remote place to burn them, but gave up in the end because I didn`t want to risk getting caught - especially with his car dying every so often (had to keep restarting his car :/).

He told me about Magic Kingdom in Lansvale and apparently it was haunted so I wanted to go there :P He called up his cousin because he didn`t know where it was and it was more fun with more people xD so we picked him up and when we got there, Eddy was freaking out xD Usually cops patrol the area, so we full opened up the map to pretend we were lost xD but no-one was patrolling anyway :/ Eddy got scared so we drove out again in less than a second xD LOL! Then his cousin felt like a McFlurry, so we spent another half an hour looking for Maccas because the one we came upon was closed x) But we found one and SOMEONE was SMOKING >=[! Grrr... so angry when I found out ><"

Then I finally thought of a place to burn the f*works - La Perouse! It was the best place ever because it`s heaps quiet there and no houses bunched up together =) the nearest building was like meters away :P but there were a lot of Lebs in the carparks leading up to the place :/ we met two of the guys that were parked next to us later on - they saw the previous f*work we set off and asked for one, so we gave them one of the small bee ones that fly up and has a bit of colour :P it was cool - ended up sharing the rest of those small bees because we just wanted to use it up - they were nice people - intimidating at first, but friendly =) We took ages lighting up the other fireworks beforehand because we were using a lighter and it was heaps windy xD The Leb guys used the ends of their cigarettes to light it up xD and it was so much faster - why didn`t we think of that xD -we did have a pack of them... ><"

Previously, I felt like I was offering drugs or something because I went up to the other car next to the guys` car and offered some f*works for the girls through the window, but they didn`t want any xD but yea... it felt weird :/ aha `

Finally, I got driven home and when I got in the house and was taking my things out of the plastic bag that I had brought with me, I realised I was missing a slipper and turns out that Stitch had taken it out again xD LOL! Lucky I bought new Havaianas the day before (old ones broke). I slept at 3.30am.

- NOW; toDAY `

Woke up at 9.30, dad was washing the dogs in the bathroom next door and I needed to pee... Waiting on the bathroom, I called Eddy to make sure he was up for work (because it was my fault that he slept really late) - he wasn`t xD

So I MADE SURE he got up:

"Good morning~ are you awake?"

"No... ><"

"Don`t you have work today?"

"Mmm..."

"Get up >=|!"

"I`m up"

"Okay.. go bathroom and turn on the tap then >=)"

*Makes fake water noise*

"- -; no seriously..."

*makes fake water noise again*

"- -; I`m not stupid, now get up... Hurry up, I need to pee >=[! I won`t get up until you get up"

*goes on for a few more minutes... with a bit of weird "did you know that guys get prostate cancer if they hold in their pee" and "girls get tight for holding it in" in between >.>" LOL (that was for my sake coz it was funny xD)

After that, I couldn`t fall asleep so I just woke up -

Now I`m just really tired, my mind throbbing and eyes stinging, but I CAN`T FALL ASLEEP TT" ahaha ` maybe if I tried... but with Grant`s birthday coming up, I have SO much to do for it before then �C I`m hoping to meet a deadline by Tuesday or something and send out something to him so it`ll arrive by Friday =) I am yet to accomplish giving birthday presents ON TIME xD ROFL!

I have been writing this forEVER; been on Facebook applications (country story too now) and I havn`t done anything all morning =(

*5hours later...

Just came back from being over at my neighbour`s for woodfired pizza coz they recently got it done for $5000 :/ whew that`s a lot of money >< LOL ` but it was yummy :3 especially the white chocolate cheesecake- her mum makes the BEST cheesecake EVER *drools :3... my neighbour is a year and a few months younger than me and I haven`t seen her in ages even though she IS my neighbour :L We were upstairs in her room with people and yea ` I miss those times =)

Two hours later I get called out of her room and going back to get my shoes, me and mummy went to family friend`s to try on my dress again xD LOL! In the car my mum was like "you didn`t apologise for what happened yesterday", so I apologised and it was aaall good ^^ Got to family friend`s and we interrupted their dinner ><" aha ` and the dress looks really pretty ^^ like not as much on me >< but it looks really cute :3 ehehe ` and the shoes were alright with it I think :/ BUT ANYWAYS- msn is distracting me and I`m webcamming with Josh and Mikey so my blogging is slacking off... and I still haven`t done anything today >< SIGH! :S

- epic fail once again TT" but a happy ending to my day... apart from the fact that I resume normal school tomorrow >=(! And I have a feeling that I`m going to be sleeping late ... again ><!

Btw - all that was about 5 pages in word doc (not including the phone convo) xD LOL!

❤ loripOps =)

` phamlet xx